Pushing you away..

I'm pushing you away
Because I have to
Because I think I should
Because my mind plays games
Because I'm afraid of losing.

I don't want to be hurt, but I want to be close
The feeling of desire and the urge to be touched
To be held and to be listened to
To risk being open and to depend on you.

I'm pushing you away
Because I want to
Because the urge is strong
Because I know I'm wrong
Because you're too good?

I want to feel the good, I don't want the bad
I ask for too much and ask too little.
To make mistakes and want revenge,
My heart lacks the courage
To do something as simple as
Making amends.

I'm pushing you away
I don't want to
I'm pushing you away
To save you


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